I’m still struggling with who I should be. I guess I feel I need to be redefined by this liver disease and my feelings after watching Clerks III.
I see myself trying on different hats daily. Am I going to focus on being funny? Am I going to be serious? An I going to be old fashioned? Am I going to be compassionate? What media will define me? Westerns? Sandler films? Star Trek? The X Files?
I’m searching so hard for answers that aren’t there. I realize I’m not accepting myself for me.
I need to accept that I’m a combination of all of my interests. That I can’t base my life on any of them because they are all fictional and/or not me. I have no idea why I struggle with this so much. I guess it’s my desire to have a mentor or someone to guide me and help me.